Off to Taukinham

My paycheck came in earlier than I expected, and now I’m writing this going on the train to Taukinham. By the time I put this up I’ll be in Taukinham already, because I can’t get the Internet on the train, but I’m writing it here because I was just reading that book Wise Blood and I wanted to talk about it some. I decided I needed to read it again so I could remember everything properly for when I get back to Taukinham. I haven’t read it in a while and it was nice to read it again because it made me remember a lot I hadn’t remembered in a long time. Like I had forgotten that that Enoch boy was the boy who done give me that potato peeler I never used.

There’s something really interesting about reading the beginning of the book again because Hazel came to Taukinham on a train too, and when I look at that and I look at how I’m writing this on the train now it seems like maybe I’m writing another book to continue Miss O’Conner’s. Maybe I am, maybe I can write all this down and get this published, but I’m not sure I can write it as good as Miss O’Conner did, so maybe I’ll get her to do it instead. But anyway Hazel Motes came to Taukinham on a train and then he stayed with this Mrs. Watts lady for a while before he come to live where me and my daddy lived. I supposed if I can’t find him at the house first I’ll go see if I can find him at Mrs. Watts. When I first found out about Mrs. Watts I must admit I wasn’t too happy about him having another woman right before me, but I supposed I was just right, he always was just filthy right down to the guts. I wonder if he’s still like that now, or if he’s gotten all pure-like and Jesus-loving and he won’t want nothing to do with someone as filthy as me. But maybe he’ll take me in and set out to try to redeem me, if he’s gotten so holy, and so I’ll have to bring him out of that after a while and we can get back to the way things were before he done blinded himself and ruined those pee-can eyes I was so crazy for.

So that’s what my plan is for when I get to Taukinham. I’ll find a boy to take up with so I can have someplace to sleep and first I’ll look in the house and then at Mrs. Watts and if I still don’t find him I’m going to have to find somewhere else to look too.

I know I’m not really saying much important with this blog now but I got tired of reading the book again and I needed something to do. Right now I’m at the part where Hazel found out about my daddy’s eyes. Sometimes I wonder, is that why he did it, because he saw my daddy didn’t do it like he was supposed to and so he decided someone had to do it in his place? I read that book again and again and I still never knew why he done it or why he throwed that baby of mine against the wall. That lady from the detention home said there was some meaning to it, that Hazel was real Jesus-loving deep down but he never wanted to be that way. Well, I could have told her that, but she says it’s meant to say something about the country and all the people in it, but whenever I asked her what she meant she said I had to figure that out for myself, but I never could and so I don’t know what it means. Maybe you have to have something inside to know what it means, some Jesus-loving part that I don’t got or some wise blood of your own or something.

But anyways, I just wrote this so I’d have something to do on the train here, but it looks like I’m going to be stopping soon and so I’ll stop writing for now.